Oops...

So. We've been back almost 2 weeks now. I've done the laundry. I've napped with my pups. I've snuggled my GrandBoys and celebrated Ethan's 2nd birthday. I've shopped. I've been with my church family. I've watched Auburn football. I've driven my car. But I've also just gone through the motions...

Cause, I've missed our life in Argentina.

I've missed that great sense of purpose. I've missed that everyday feeling of being in the middle of something bigger than me. I've missed seeing fruit ripen seemingly immediately. I've been irritated that I came back "home" a different person while so many others seemed the same. I've been angry that people more experienced at going didn't tell me that coming back would be so hard. I've gritted my teeth and cried to see people I love making dumb or damaging decisions when the Answer is so simple. Sad. Irritated. Angry. Mopey.

To put it simply, I've been of no good.

Oh! But today I remembered! I'm not the servant of my emotions! My emotions work for me! A mopey me is a disobedient and defeated me. The joy of the Lord is my strength! Literally! His plan for me (and for you!) is so much bigger than what we can feel and see right now.

So, I'm making changes. Again. I'm changing the way I think. Again. I'm changing the way I talk. Again. And I'll continue to make adjustments.

I'm telling you this, you see, cause if I can, you can...